WELCOME TO MY WORLD

I've started numerous other blogs before and kept them buried or superficial. So I'm trying something new and making this public, for accountability, and actually sharing more than I ever have. It'll be about my ups and downs, the triumphs, the doubts, the successes, the insecurities. Basically it's the journey of a person with mental illness as they train for a healthy future.

If you don't follow me on Twitter my name is Tiffany and I'm currently stuck, as I jokingly say, in northeast Ohio, while I deal with health issues, namely, depression. I've been dealing with major depression and social anxiety for almost 30 years and have been on and off medication during that time. 

Just some brief background for where I am now, in 2013 I moved from my beloved Jacksonville, FL, where I had a support system for a job. My depressed mind thought this would be a good idea. It wasn't, I was isolated, I was miserable in my job, the weather was awful and I missed home and my friends. My depression worsened due to lack of treatment (for almost 1 1/2 years at this point) and I lost my job. I am eternally grateful for my mom, she rescued me. She drove down and helped me pack up my life and drove me to Ohio and moved me in with her. I don't know that I had ever been as depressed as I was at this point. All I did was sleep, stare at the wall and cry. I tried running but running and crying don't mix. 

I eventually got on Medicaid since I wasn't working and got a therapist and a nurse (for medication) and started the long journey back to normal. My normal will be living back in Florida and supporting myself, so obviously I'm not there yet. We just recently got my meds figured out after a long few months of trial and error (if you are on any meds you know this isn't fun). 

I'm open about what I've been through because the more people talk about it then maybe more people will seek treatment when it's needed. 

I hope I didn't scare anyone off. I swear this blog isn't going to be all about depression. It really will be about my training, I swear. You just get to watch a depressed mind process it lol. So that's my story, I'm 45 years old, unemployed, living with my mom and training for a healthy future. I hope you'll join me for the ride, it's going to be interesting.